I Myself Am Strange and Unusual

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this is the best feeling i have ever felt. i don’t care if nothing happens. i’m just glad that i am happy.
i’m just glad i have finally moved on.
i’m just glad to finally realize, that i do deserve better. i deserve the best.
and the best is you.
and i can’t thank you enough.
and one day i hope i can thank you, face to face.
and not have to blog about it like the silly teenage girl i am.

I finally feel like everything is going to be okay.
I guess I’m just.. Finally moving on.

Everything
Will
Be
All right

Has been pretty stressful. I need some alone time, and a blunt. 

You can’t hold on to the memories of the past, to hope that they can help change the future. Sometimes you have to accept the fact that sometimes the one you want
may not want you back, Sometimes you have to understand, that people fall out of love,
and want to search for a new meaning.
And you sure as hell can’t blame yourself, and wonder ‘what if’ I did something different.
what if I was prettier, what if I was funnier, what if I was smarter.
if you ever have those worries, then that may mean that you need to find someone better, who will accept you and never threaten to leave your side.
You have to forget about this fairytale romance you’ve been hoping for.
You have to move on.
Some days will be hard, you will want to throw everything you have worked for down the drain.
And some days you will feel like you can make it.
Heart ache is the worst thing one can feel.
But it doesn’t last for ever.

I see you lying next to me.
with words I thought I’d never speak.
awake. and unafraid.
asleep. Or dead.
I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey if you stay, you’ll be forgiven.
nothing you can say could stop me going home.

i’m tired of feeling like this.
i just want this hurt to go away.

I don’t know how to feel, and I sure as hell don’t know how to react. It’s the worst feeling anyone could possible feel. Every hope, and every dream just taken away by something you knew you saw coming. But you didn’t want to believe it, you didn’t want to pay attention to all of the signs that were given to you. It happened once, what made you think it wouldn’t happen again? He left you, pierced your heart, left your body numb, and to sulk in your misery. Alone. He knocked you off your feet in the beginning and in the end, he left you lying on your ass, to hopefully one day pick yourself back up.

hey sammay! I havent talked to you in awhile! hows your little girl doing? is she healthy? I hope so. anyways, i miss you,  feel free to comment on my page! :D