I Myself Am Strange and Unusual

• The real reason why you suddenly wanted to date me.
• The real reason why you broke up with me, your excuse, ‘i’m just not ready’, was not true. considering the fact less than 24 hours later you were about to date someone else.
• Do you treat all of your close friends that are girls the way you treat me? 
• If I was never good enough for you in the first place, why did you even put yourself in this position?
• Why do you talk so much shit about someone, but go back to them? Even though you supposedly were miserable?
• Why do you purposely make me hurt?
• And last, why couldn’t I make you happy?

Because at one point in time I believed the bullshit you said. Now, things are finally looking up for me. And I couldn’t be happier.

Was great. Finally my group of friends hung out again and did the usual. We went to the mall, and then Nikki and I went to Queen Of Hearts to see if they could touch up my tattoo, little did I know this guy I used to have a huge crush on works there, it made my life. I couldn’t get my tattoo touched up that night, but hopefully this week. Then we went to a party in Smyrna, it was tight. I’m glad I didn’t waste another Saturday on someone who lives to lead me on. I love my friends.

Whats up doe? Leggo

Its nice to know that you were there.Thanks for acting like you cared. And making me feel like I was the only one. Its nice to know we had it all. Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know that we were done. He was everything everything that I wanted.

To be drunk right now. But no one will help us out. Oh well, tonight is bangin

Me and Nikki are trying to figure out something to do. Help?

But I’m not her or anyone else. I’m not enough.

was incredibly random. their was like a zombie outbreak but i never got close enough to tell if they were zombies, or just infected and trying to survive? but anyways i was at a kroger at one point with some people, i can’t remember who…but we all got split up and somehow i managed to find a lot of small doors and chose one, and they all led into either storage rooms or unpacking rooms. The room was about 50-75 feet tall, and you had to use ladders, not just one that went straight down, but it twisted around the walls, but it was somewhat safe to do? that sounds dumb. Anyways, I went down there and there was this really cute guy, and his name was John, and he looked at me and smiled and his eyes grew huge and they were such a deep blue, his hair was a light brown, it was that swooshy justin bieber/skater hair but it worked, trust me. He looked at me and said, “Samantha, i can’t believe i finally get to meet you.” I completely forgot how we supposedly knew each other, but we did? we stayed in the room for awhile and my friends found me, and then told me he was infected, so i had to leave him. i woke up and was like, FUCK NOT EVEN IN MY DREAMS DOES SOMEONE STAY

but there was a lot more to the dream and it was crazy and i loved it.

i set myself up for everything i don’t want. i just want someone who is afraid of losing me in a way no one has before. i forgot what that felt like. i just want a sign, or something, that things will get better and that things will be okay.